Misunderstood

The misunderstanding of ones dreams can lead to nightmares for those left in confusion. One must understand that they can not force someone to go the route they believe one should partake in, for everyone's destiny is separate from their own. A hard concept for such a young mind to grasp. Fear blinded my eyes from seeing the truth. A fear that has stuck with me for years because of my lack of understanding. I have failed to accept responsibility for my own actions, for my association with excuses yielded the correction of such. All because I misunderstood your purpose in my life.

Without you, the necessary ingredients that makes a man would not be prevalent in my life today. Every forest depends on a fallen tree. To the innocent bystander, the fallen tree has failed, for it could not withstand the same conditions as that of the rest of the trees. Yet, it is still of natural occurrence for every tree to fall, die, after living such a long fulfilled life. Many things may be eating away at the tree on the inside, but it displays a warrior mentality to never give up no matter what adversity it may face. Even when it falls it still serves its purpose of being a benefactor to the environment. Every strong tree must fall, and adapt to its environment. How the environment adapts to the tree depends on its success. Amazing how one simple change has a spiral effect that ripples down the roots, which sends shockwaves in each and every direction touching all in the surrounding area so that they too may do the same. Now once fallen, either due to weather or simply natural causes, the tree, to some, may be seen as finally 'falling' into its true purpose. Even in its dying state the tree not only provides much needed minerals and nutrients to the soil, which subsequently gives life to many micro-organisms, but also helps boost the ecosystem in the process. Some may find the fall detrimental because of how it may direct or indirectly effect the lives of those that inhabited the tree pre-fall. Evolution may take its course, but adaptation comes in swiftly to save the day. It is because of adaptation that every organism possible found on the forest bed finds the obscurity to be beneficial in some way. Of course it is up to them of how they choose to adapt in a positive manner. From providing a smorgasbord of various insects for a variety of birds and animals, to providing protection to anyone needing shelter from their respective predators lingering about the forest. A fallen tree should not be moved, only should it serve its purpose as being the strength for the forest. What fallen trees are to the forest, so it is true for my father to his son.

Often seen as a tree that has fallen and given up, over the years I have grown to see that of the contrary. Instead of seeing the fallen tree as beneficial, I ventured off deep into the forest in search of the right essentials that could help fuel my, thought, damaged life. Was unaware that everything that was needed was right in front of me; the fallen tree. Now that I have returned to the tree that was in correlation with being detrimental, it is made known of the true purpose. Exuberating confidence. Courage. A will to never give up. To always strive for excellence in all that is achievable. To always show respect, even when it is not given. An artistic 'drawist' mindset. To keep focus on God. The list goes on of all the necessary 'minerals and nutrients' that was needed to make it as a man in the forest that is my life. You were only living out your purpose, and for that I thank you. My apologies, for it took twenty-four years for me to realize the need of a fallen tree in my life; an often misunderstood necessity.
I love you Dad.